Hijabi Hayah

I thought this feeling of trying to figure myself out would disappear as I got older but it seems its something that will stay, I am always trying to figure out what I like, what makes me happy, what makes me ME. Its like I don't really know who I am yet, and it'll take me the rest of my life to find out. Sometimes I get frustrated with myself, like why can't it just be simple, why is everything I do one big fuzzball. But I guess that's just me, part of understanding myself is accepting myself, regardless of who does and doesn't accept that.  I think an important part of knowing yourself is not caring if others don't know you or even accept you. I have struggled with that for a long time, and I still do but I always want to remind myself it doesn't matter what anyone in the world thinks as long as I know myself and I am working on finding out who I really want to be, and I want to remind you too that you can take all the time in the world getting to

So it's been a while, my life has changed. Maybe even I have changed. Change can do that to you. There has been a big change in my life... um...ah.. I got married. If I'm honest I have been feeling slightly overwhelmed and I did stop running and volunteering amongst other things. I choose not to go to the Malawi trip but the money still went (my Nikkah was around the trip time) Despite this, I am getting back into my running,  I stopped that for a while but alhamdulilah I am getting back into it. I have been running for an hour twice a week at gym with my husband and I have been trying to get back into writing too. I am still working alhamdulilah, so things have really changed. Do you remember where I was a year ago? I can tell you I was miserable. I wasn't getting married (I had tried), I failed my driving and I left work. All in all 2017 was a rubbish year, things have changed so much, I am blessed with a job and a husband, I guess I never r