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Dear dad

Dear Dad,When I was young I always had fun. I always had fun because of you, Dad. We would all visit London on Eid, going to tower hamlets for wings or green street for the famous kebabs. We were young and we didn't know much but you made it fun.I would play with your hair and pick out gray hairs you would give me a pound for pulling out lots of gray hairs. You would buy me toys and we would all visit felixstowe beach and Clacton. You did a good job Dad. You made our childhood happy, filling it with outings and family visits, we had fun.

When we moved to London, it stopped. It seemed like you were busy with work and maybe we all forgot the love you showed us when we were young. Love is not the same for everyone. Stress and pressure make a person different. Difficult. I'm sorry I didn't understand better. I'm sorry you thought we didn't love you. I'm sorry you were annoyed at how we would avoid you. I'm sorry Dad. We didn't understand your temperament. Y…

My dad

I'm sorry dad.
I'm sorry that you won't be around on my wedding day.
I'm sorry that you won't see me again.
I'm sorry I got annoyed
I'm sorry I never listened
I'm sorry I didn't try with you
I'm sorry I couldnt be a better daughter
I'm sorry I didn't talk to you enough
I'm sorry I never spoke to you about being a nurse
I'm sorry you won't see me as a nurse
I'm sorry you left
I'm sorry for the things I've said
And the ones I've never said
I'm sorry I didn't see you before you died
I'm sorry I couldn't hug you and cry
I'm sorry dad
I'm sorry

Dont talk about my friends

So lately I've been getting annoyed with people, sometimes ignoring them, maybe even having a rant. You know the usual. But i think im justified and im guessing youll agree with me. It might surprise you to know I find it easier to talk to patients with mental health issues than I do with others. I think it has something to do with the fact that mental health patients have no desier for superiority or a want to show off- they are down to earth and genuine people. Since my time on placement, I've realised all the things people told me- (its going to be scary, you cant trust them they are dangerous etc. Etc.) arent true. Mental health patients, although I can't generalise (that doesnt mean they arent its just I havent met a huge amount) are lovely people , they get agigtated sure, but thats like you and me my friend , no different. They arent actually that violent, sometimes if the voices in their heads gets too much it might make them louder and perhaps aggressive, but they…