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Sleepy Haze



So recently I've been feeling confused. I feel like my thoughts are all muddled up and I need to sort them all out, I've been trying to journal more to figure it all out and it has helped to clear the fog somewhat but I think maybe I need some more self care time, some more me time. Maybe then I can figure out what I really want. I don't know about you but after a big change in my life I get like this I forget the things I enjoy and the things that make me happy, see I get so focused on the change that everything else is just insignificant.
I think what I'm really lacking is contentment, contentment from God and being close to Allah. That's why I've signed up to do an Islamic course but I still feel I have alot of time on my hands, don't get me wrong I am productive but I guess I like keeping busy. I think the first step is to assess which I suppose I did by journaling, and now I think I need a way to relax and calm my mind, yoga sounds most suitable.
It could just be I'm so focused on doing 'things' that I'm not enjoying the 'now' and the beauty of all the things I have, maybe it's that or maybe I just think way too much and I'm hurting my head as well yours. In any case I hope I figure it out and I hope if you are feeling the way i am, I hope you figure it out too.





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