Abrasive or Confident?

Sometimes you know when you meet someone confident you instantly know they are confident, the warm smile, the big handshake, the open hand gestures(or maybe that's the psychoanalysts out there??) they all show that this person is confident.

But working in retail has made me realise that some people aren't actually as confident as they appear, sometimes they have insecurities themselves and they project this through trying to put someone else down, or appear better than someone else, because in my opinion someone who's actually confident wouldn't care about ridiculing someone they simply converse with another human in a normal manner, no hidden agendas, no mind games or ...upping someone.

Yeah, so

wasalaam

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